March – June. Significance: I’m finally over it. It took 17 months and a really pathetic comment, but I’m over it. (Halle-fucking-lujah!) In a pitiful moment on March 5th, I scribbled the following on a page in my mini-journal (oh, the irony!): “Life is still just a series of experiences without Chris.” To be fair, I later wrote, “If the train isn’t moving, it is spinning. If it moves, I am ok.” Today, June 1st, I’m totally fine (well, it’s been about a week-I needed to test its validity). And in truth, I wasn’t wrong. Life is still a series of experiences without Chris, I just have no need to be that specific about it. It’s also a series of experiences without my bff from elementary school as well. I guess what I’m trying to articulate is that not only do I not feel like my heart actually belongs to someone else, but I can look back at that blurb in my book and think, “disgusting.” So, Jenny, what was your theory on how long it officially takes to get over someone? I don’t think I made par, but it’s really refreshing to know I can feel this kind of freedom. Of course, being broken up with by an immediate family member could have helped. The pain is just…different, is all. My heart = still all mine. Hands off, bitches.
June – September. Significance: my last few months in NY. I feel like there are so many things I want to cram into them, but I have no idea what they are. Strange, right? I know June is going to be gone before I know it — BBQs/birthdays, overnights at SBU, articles articles and more friggen’ articles, summer course-work — it is undoubtedly going to fly by. July promises to be a little less insane, but busy nonetheless. August, however. August is mine. I will have 30 days to (a) find an apartment; (b) move into said apartment; (c) see everyone I know. I am going to try my absolute damnedest to NOT have any more summer course, or research work, or child care hours. I want to go to the speech office, come home and do whatever I want. Because I need that damn month. And come August 30th, my life as I know it will be completely different.